double standards. more than one kinda standard. 两种税/水准 (- is the chinese even correct? i dunno man..). 二つ水準。dua standards (dunno malay for it). and obviously i dunno indian so as much as i like to type that i can't.

okie... i'm like filling the post with redundant words. like u cld not read from the title that it's double standards. i think all of us have double standards. like me... i don't like smoking (or rather the activity of it) and i complain like hell abt it. but yet i am still good frens with some smokers. or like when i say.. i hate hypocrites and yet i display many sign of hypocritism. but i guess... we are all hypocrites. there is very rarely a person who show his/her 本当の気持ち ( -true feelings).

anyhoos.... if there's something i can't stand.. (i'm sitting down.. neh neh!! haha okie shut up chels. be smart) okie sidetrack... i wish we cld put the msn smileys here leh.. esp the moving ones.. then i can bleah at pple and it wld so convey the msg. okie back to what i was saying......... what was i saying...... yeah if there's something i can't stand.. that wld be (apart from many of the things i can't stand.. yes i'm a prick) is when someone close (actually no need to be close lah.. anyone whom i like as a person) to me tells me one thing and then proceeds to do another or vehemently condemns/feel strongly against something and yet u see the person doing it. granted that u have to take changes in perception/mentality into consideration, but, and i guess essentially what i wanna say is that, don't be so quick to condemn or jump the gun. esp if there is a possibility that u urself might do that very thing u 'detest'.

so maybe i shd change my perception of younger guys. hahah i keep saying that i don't wanna date younger guys.. but so far.. it's causing me more trouble. i'm afraid if i keep saying that i might actually end up with a younger guy! as my bf. which wld suck balls and all my frens wld laugh at me. and i suppose as u grow older... age really doesn't matter that much. i think it's more of maturity and mentality that really makes the difference between a boy and a man. and maybe then, i shd also change my perception of gu niang girls. i might end up evolving into one, one who wears skirts like there's no other bottoms in the world. and wear makeup every single day, even to school.

which brings me to this.... i really don't understand why do girls do that. apart from looking pretty. but it's just school. i mean i understand if u're like looking pale that day, or u have a presentation to do. but everyday!?!?! wah lau.. pores damm clogged lah! but i supose there are some girls who feel more confident abt their looks with make up on. so if that floats ur canoe.. then so be it. BUT don't condemn pple on wearing make up to school.. saying that they're vain or slutty or wanting to attract attention, then declaring u wld NEVER do that, AND then go use make up to school urself. (another example of double standards) i'm just too lazy to put on anything before school.. and it's cos i wake up 20 mins before class and only have time to brush my teeth lah.. hahahahah!!!

on the topic of make up.. i really like green eyeshadow and mascara. (okie that coming from me, is prob something new) but i've always like make-up. not the putting on but the variety of colours available. they make me happy. and recently.. (well not that recent) i've been more open to putting on make up on special occasions. except family things.. cos my male cousins (like 15 of them) wld just laugh their balls of at me.. cos to them i'll always be that tomboy who played soccer with them, ran ard dirty with them, and ever only wore shorts/berms. that and the fact that they think i'm fugly and no one wants me.. hence some of them have taken it upon themselves to find me a boyfriend from their wealth of male friends. (NO THANKS AH!!!!!)

** hint: if any of u want to get me bday pressies.. can get me make up?? so that i can be happy? cos the bright colours make me happy. and if i like them.. i wld wear a skirt to thank you! (that sounded off! but what the hell..)